Are You Able to Create a Birthday You Actually Enjoy?
39 Years Old, 5.5 years sober, 1.5 years Actually Autistic, and I finally nailed it.
Enjoying a birthday sounds simple, but historically I’ve found it hard. There have been years where I’ve worried about ageing, years where I haven’t wanted to ‘make a fuss’, years where I’ve been flat out depressed (without realising). There have been years I organised things that weren’t to my own tastes. Years I got too drunk. Years I fought with my boyfriend.
It strikes me that to organise a successful birthday for yourself and enjoy it you need to have learned some difficult lessons. (Well, I did anyway.) And there’s one crucial thing in particular, that you need, something not easy to come by. Can you guess what I’m talking about?
My last birthday as a drinker in 2016 was, for me, a disaster (though my friends had fun, apparently, so that’s nice). I got upset with my partner because he hadn’t bought me a present (he took me shopping for one instead) and the flat was a mess, and we had no nice food in. I was so peeved by lunchtime that I started drinking to try and shift into a better vibe, though I knew by now that was a bad idea for us.
Later on, my friends came over, and we headed out for dinner, and the food wasn’t good, and that…
